The Momless Club

My name is Maggie, and I am a member of the momless club.

In June of 2018, my mom, my best friend, and my favorite wine drinking partner was diagnosed with esophageal cancer. The doctors were optimistic about her chances of recovery, so we hoped and prayed and fought with her every step of the way. On February 10, 2019 - a day that I will never be able to erase from my memory - I held her hand and, surrounded by our entire family, I said goodbye.

When asked to describe myself, I typically go with “professional dog cuddler and coffee addict. lover of sarcasm, red wine, good books, a quick wit and country music.”

Funny enough, that is exactly how I picture mom right now in heaven. Cuddling her ginormous dogs, snuggled up with a good book and a nice glass of Sauv. Blanc with some Miranda Lambert blasting on the radio. I just SO wish I could be with her.

I wasn’t sure if I would have the energy to continue my blogs after she passed - but I found that I still have so much to say to her, still so much I want her to know. So I figured I would let you all come along with me.

This is an all access pass into my messy, emotional and wine-filled attempt at survival as I learn to navigate through life, love and grief without my sweet mom. I am not sure how to move forward, how to stop grieving, or how to find purpose in a life without her in it, but I am going to do my damnedest to do it right and make her proud - even if I need a glass of wine (or two) to get through it.

Welcome to my living hell, and thank you for sharing it with me. Patience appreciated. Comments encouraged. Ugly crying welcomed.

Is there wine in heaven? I sure hope so.

Cheers mom.